Was supposed to post this up last Friday, 16 August 2013 —
Yesterday was my first day at work after a 3-months maternity leave (no, its not long enough). But more importantly, it was our precious Seth’s first day at baby daycare.
The night before, I packed his things according to Lil Baby Haus’s checklist. Lil Baby Haus (will refer to it as LBH) is a baby daycare in KLGCC. A golf club just across the road from my office. The checklist included -two bedsheets, washcloths, towels, etc. They even specified which item had to be brought back daily, and those weekly. Systematic, I like.
Anyway…I was packing all his things, not forgetting to include his toy owl which he loves, wish I could also pack our ceiling fan (he loves looking at that too!) Was feeling so sad while packing, I said to P…

“B, it feels macam I nak hantar Seth to uni”

I don’t know which feeling would be worst, I think first day at baby daycare is worst, he’d be all grown when it’s time for uni.  Being away from my little stud muffin now after being with him every day for the past 3 months is just plain torture.

I was very pleased when his caretaker introduced herself to me, a sweet Chinese lady named Chris, maybe in her late 30s. She seemed gentle and knew her way around babies. Making sure I had all that Seth needed, and also requesting for the full download on his feeding and sleep patterns, what he likes and dislikes etc. Asking all the right questions, which gave me confidence in her. I wanted to type out a Seth fact-sheet, but unfortunately I didn’t have the time (so OCD, i know)

After tears ( I cried, Seth just smiled and wanted to chat) and a very very heavy heart, we went off to work. I silently prayed that Allah protect Seth and ease us through this process.
Luckily the office was still in Raya mode, and I could settle in slowly, although next week, everything will run in full steam. I managed to settle well with expressing my milk at the office. Got some good tips from my colleagues. Very happy with the yield too, Alhamdulillah. I haven’t been expressing for the past two weeks, so was worried that my yield might be very little, but fortunately that wasn’t the case.
Needless to say, I was a jumping bunny when it was time to pick Seth. Kept glancing at the desktop clock the whole day.

As I walked into the daycare, it felt so so surreal looking at him sitting in a Fischer Price baby chair next to another baby, macam dah big boy! Padahal I had only left him for a few hours. Hugging him just never felt so good. It was like hugging him for the first time. Mummy’s stud muffin!!

Chris his caretaker said “He talks a lot” J  No points for guessing where he got that trait from. She then gave me the end-of- day updates. I was happy to know that he drank 16oz of milk, and managed to nap. He didn’t sleep as long as he usually does when at home – I think its cos he is settling in to the new environment.

It is agonising to leave your child for work. Painful and heart wrenching, but it really makes you treasure the times you have with him, even more.